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Stuck on a on a one way street.
Can't turn back nor can I move forward.
Feet stay planted with nowhere to go.

Back and I'm glad! I really needed a place to vent.. I can't believe it's been more than a year since I've written in this and my last entry had to be about Razon, ha! I guess Aldrine didn't really make the cut for LJ. It's surprising since he was probably the best boyfriend I've ever had, it's just too bad my heart wasn't in the relationship, but life goes on.. time for a new story..

A Crush
Usually a temporary infatuation.


I'm definitely falling hard and I don't know why

Every time I try to pull away, you seem to always get me back, as cliche as that sounds, but why? I seem to ask myself that every time, like what is it about you! You don't exactly fit my "perfect" guy status. I wasn't exactly planning on meeting anyone so soon and now I'm feeling emotions I've never felt before...

So it ended.
I guess I'm not too affected,
why?

- I tried to make it work even when it hurts; you didn't seem to help
- I paid for your food even when I, too, was struggling; you never did make up for it.
- As lame as it sounds, not once did you ever 'sweep me off my feet'
- I came to watch your games, even when I wasn't allowed, but NOT ONCE did you ever do the same for me!
- You let me down way too many times
- I had looked forward to Valentine's day, but all I got out of it was a Happy Valentine's Day greeting ON MSN!
- You never seemed interested in how my days or my games went; all I wanted was for you to ask me how my game went ESPECIALLY on valentine's day when I played my best game, but I don't think you even know that!
- I was FUCKIN harassed on the subway and you weren't even sincere about it! I felt like you were more interested in knowing why I hated downtown as to trying to make me feel better
- You would never make plans, I had to do it! I understand, maybe once in a while, but always?
- I listened attentively to all your problems!
- I accepted the type of guy that you were; you said you weren't 'boyfriend material', I DID NOT care but if you're gonna act like it then why'd you ask me to be your girlfriend in the first place?

Being with you hurts more than being without you. I TRIED?! BUT FOR WHAT REASON!?
it was goodsucked while it lasted

What happened?

FUCKIN' AWESOME!!!

so my sister's jam turned out nice still
though the birthday girl was DUNZO!!;
details are better kept between those who were there ;)

BALL ALL WEEK EVERYDAY
....
Labour Day Weekend WAS LIIIIVE!!

BRB

CRAAAZZYYY WEEEK!!!
braidups by kaycee
random visit by tina & josh
DAVE AND BUSTER'S w/ the philcan ladies!!!!! this place is absolutely, positively WICKED
pulled an all-nighter with via and candice
surprise visit at friendbest's
a late night walk with the boys =)
snuck out at night
ran ball downtown around arlene's area w/ karla, jeff, jozann and jojo before our game // ate some hosu =)
chilled with sarah for a bit and drove around her area
stupid karla, sarah AND niveal we're scared for their life! NO TRUST
SIS almost ran over a PEDESTRIAN! lesson learned
picked up karla at brampton
rented SHE'S THE MAN & HILLS HAVE EYES!
CHANNING TATUM <3
PILLOW FIGHT at 4 in the morning
exhibition game vs. some chinese team.. lost =/ by a buzzer beater! 72-70
ran ball at my place again before practise
WORK WORK WORK!!
CNE brrraap brrrraapp!!
toooooo jokes!! someone chop that guy for me at the color game!!!!
I WON ME A BALL!! YAY!!
played 5 on 5 vs some random chinese guys! cheeya! we won that shit!

pre-wonderland- chillin at kathryn's
missioned with my sister
chilled with kathryn, karla, matet & lizette
got picked up at square one and randomly picked up lizette
awwwww poor lizette was still in her pambahay
stayed at her place for a bit 'til she got dressed
while i ate her breakfast; CLOVER CHIIIIIPS!
what can i say, i was STARVED!!
karla gave me an ice cream sandwich, and i had a rice crispie and a teddy graham before that; pure junk!
then we picked up matet....
OMG! i felt like i was gonna die!!!!!
stupid kathryn opened her car door so the big ass dog can come in!
and lizette, OMG! this girl used me as a shield!!
we were all screaming are asses off!!!
then we finally arrived at kathryn's
still waiting for the "real food" karla promised to make
let's just say, IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT
Watched Prime; the movie was pure SEX! hollaayyy..
then we went to PHYBA practise at Humber (lakeshore campus)
thanks to my map, we got there without getting lost =)
noone even told us how to get there!!

WONDERLAND - Aug. 16/06
arlene picked me and my sister up
met up with karla, matet, kathryn and mikey
we went on enough rides!!!
i even went on the drop zone =) soooo wicked!!
hmmmm, let's recall the rides i went on....
minebuster, nightmares x2, tomb raider, italian job, the beast, psyclone, sledgehammer, top gun, skyrider, shockwave
nightmares- whatchu know about me and arlene! told u karla that we could switch places! we didnt even need practise =)
italian job- APPLE SAUCE!!! second last ride of the day, we walked like zombies; we were soooo tired
skyrider- THIS WAS THE WORSE! only cuz KATHRYN practically killed my ribs with that belt thing
shockwave- HAHAHAHA!! matet, I swear i thought we were playing a game! i was laughin soo hard!
psyclone- this one felt wicked, me and karla were screaming our asses off!
oh.. and i cant forget getting kathryn soaked at the bridge!!
that was soooo jokes!! HEYY, IT WAS ONLY FAIR!
THE COOKIEWICH, THE FOOT LONG HOT DOG & THE FUNNEL CAKE WAS AMAZING!!!
i want one now!!
GREAT DAY!!! I LOVED IT =D
i wanna goo back!

DROVE FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY OUTSIDE OF THE PARKING LOT!
AND I DROVE A BEAMER!
IT WAS FUCKIN WICKED!!
we drove around to remely's to get "halo halo" LOL
oh wow.. TOOOO FUNNNYY!!!
stupid censor beeped enough times!!!
but thank god for them or else we would've probably smashed the car!
i think i got a stomach ache from their food..
and that lead to a cramp
which then ruined my mood for ball!!
it hurt sooo much =(
but whatever .. still a good day overall =D
THANKS CHRISTINA!!
and OMG! WE SHOUULD DRIVE ON THE HIGHWAY MORE OFTEN!!!

Anne and Christina = 2 G1 LICENCED DRIVERS DRIVING A 4 X 4 BMW ON THE HWY!!!
CRRRAAAAZZZZYYYY!!!

depressed mode.
why?
cuz sam actually let me drive in the parking lot and like yo, i've driven enough times before right (sarcasm, if u can tell)
but i let her down cuz i hit a fuckin curb!
i feel so stupid!!!
she's never gonna trust me again!!
boooooooooo
i think thats the only reason im sad
oh and the north york situation
that's soooo messed too!
i say screw that and make up our own team
but it's so much easier said than done.. dammnnn

so today was actually fun
didnt actually expect everyone to come down
PHILCAN PHILCAN PHILCAN!
k well barely but still
after ball, omg! i swear i drank enough juice!
citrus mango, iced tea, fruitopia, orange and a grape freezie!
i was that thirsty!

WORK, WORK, WORK!

im sick and im tired
I lack sleep
My parents fuckin hate me
Stressed out of my mind
Noone will ever understand me
and I choose not to explain myself
Im changing and i dont like it!
I need to figure out what I want

i need to get away

This Year's accomplishments.. feels nice =)


TDCAA Table Tennis Silver Medalists


Softball Mvp


Softball - TDCAA Gold Medalists


Mabuhay Cup '06 -Silver Medalists



Ottawa Tourney MVP


Graduated with a FRENCH DIPLOMA

i miss my long hair =/

...

so i walk in church, right on time yet people still give us the look as if we were late
was it cuz we were asians?
or maybe cuz it was an 8:00 a.m. mass and they're surprised to see kids my age up that early in church?
another day in church = another excuse to day dream
as soon as we got our seats, i made sure enough space was between my mom and i
i took a quick glance at the altar servers hoping to see the hot guys christina was talking about
sadly, there was none
then i look around once again to see if i knew anybody
and to my disappointment, i saw noone but strangers
then i noticed a girl sitting in front of me with an orange hoodie
i got jealous and turned away
then it started
as much as i wanted to pay attention to the first & second reading and the gospel, i just couldnt
what can i say? i have a limited attention span
basketball's becoming a really big issue with me
it's not meant to be complicated yet why does it seem like it?
homily time and the priest asks, "do u remember last week's gospel?"
all i could think of in my head was "YEAH RIGHT! even i don't know what today's gospel was about!"
yes i know, it's awful but really, it felt like i was in school all over again!
sometimes i wonder what it'd be like to do whatever, whenever and make decisions on my own

Can't sleep.

Part-Timer

I LOVED MY DEBUT!!!
It's so hard to put it in words
There's so much to say
I don't know where to start
but i love all those who came
and even those who couldn't make it
*ahem* i still love you =)
thanks for the home made card <3
BY FAR THE GREATEST DAY OF MY LIFE!
So much surprises!!
the singing gave me goosebumps!
THANK YOU PAUL, MITCH, MARILOU, AIA, and YAZZ
especially MY SISTER
BIGGEST SURPRISE OF THEM ALL!!! WOW!
NEVER WILL I HAVE EVER EXPECTED THAT!
and THANK YOU LADIES AND THE GUYS OF COURSE
for putting up with me during the dance
i know i was actin' like a bitch
but u guys understood where i was coming from
TRIXXX AND G-DINE! THANKS FOR BEING THE GREATEST MC'S ever!
and friendbest, thank you for EVERYTHING!
I LOVE YOU TO DEATH!! <3
...I cant end this without mentioning my escort!!

JOE MY MAN! THANKS ALOT FOR FATTENING ME UP BEFORE MY DEBUT!! J/K
But THANK YOU for staying by my side at my debut
You're one koool kid =)

PART II
This is our "confession"
- we did not buy "bling bling"
- we did not give a chinese lady props more than once
- we did not eat mcdonalds'
- we did not share a sub
- we did not buy a superkid ice cream
- we did not look for sunglasses
- we did not follow an H&M employee
- we did not see raeanne
- we did not get lost on the elevator
- we did not sleep on the subway

...and last but not least, we did not go out today =)

Ball practise w/ Angiels on saturday
As expected, "Shining Star" didn't show up
and her two other stars
"Waste" still suck like crap
and "Trash Can" was annoying as usual
Lol. nice nickanames huh
Chilled w/ the COOOLER part of Angiels after
Friendly Greek or WENDY'S!?
Up until now, im still craving for fries + frosty!
Stupid rock paper scissors. I LOST !!
We weren't even dressed properly. Shorts + Flip Flops
omg! we all wanted to walk out of that restaurant!
but noo, it's ruude to walk out after u get seated!!
Car ride home was jokes!
MUG SHOT PHOTOS! what handys'!
and i swear, Jene got lost in scarborough!

sunday - Dance Practise = chilllin =)
TRIXXX, YOUR CAMERA'S TOOO SEXY
don't be surprised if it gets lost @ my place
im kidddddddddding =P
Took enough videos with the grapes!
HAHAHAHA, WE'RE SO STUPID. only sometimes right?
Darlo's video still gives me the shivers
Didn't it look like porn!!
oh wow, darlo's too explicit

My new boyfriends =)

Andrew Lawrence from Brotherly Love and Francis Capra from Kazaam!

I CANT BELIEVE THAT'S THE GUY FROM KAZAAM!!
I swear, the kid was SOOOOO UGLY!



Look at those legs! we so werent dressed!!!

I havent written in this since last week
nothing too interesting's been happening
not unless i go get my ears pierced then that's something!
scratch that.. i just remembered, ATHLETIC BANQUET & SOFTBALL FINALS
CHEEEYA, SOFTBALL MVP! LOL
"You're a baller when...."
G, watch out, im still eyein that =P


Aldrine and Me =)

Showin of the medals.. oohh yeeee =) MVP! (ewww look at my roots!)

Coach and I

Josh and I (This guy's so frikken skinny!)

Me, Amelia, and Gee

OMG how can i forget!!!!
me, raeanne, and emmy didnt fukkkin sleep 'til past 6 in the morning!!!
all for u kathryn! WOW! im so tired!
poor emmy! the one random time we call her,
she had to stay up all night and not sleep
i swear kathryn, u better have rollerbladed to matet's house!!
good thing, i didnt have to go to school 'til 4th
so i got some sleep =)
chlled at michael's after school..
NINTENDO!!! OL' SKOOL! HAHAHAHA!!
Cant beat the champ.. ohhh yeeee =)


friendbest, when are we gonna go??
cartillage or nose??

Debbie Moore was a sciensist who wears panjamas
and eats bananas that aren't hilaw yet w/ hobo milk.
"POOOOOOOSSY"

HAHAHAHAHHA!!! toooooo funny!

LOVED THE WEEKEND <3
Friday- went to mark's house,
played cards, accused of cheating!!!
I SWEAR WE WEREN'T!!
me and kathryn are just wicked at signal =)
Hi, im "New" hahhahah
Saturday- watched mpaa games
finally ate at DEMETRES!!!
FUCK! THAT PLACE IS WICKED!!
too bad I ate alot before that
OMG! and back at kathryn's house, WOW!
jeff. no comment.
HIDE AND SEEK IN THE DARK!!
I was serious about the punches
HAHHAHAAHA poor key-key-mo
pooooooosssyy!
but i gotta admit, that was SCARYY!!!
who can make the wettest fart sound?
ERICA! without a doubt.. ewwwww
Sunday- I DON'T WANNA GO HOME!
woke up in the morning and heard the funniest line EVER!!!!!!!!
oh man.. never will I forget that line!
awwww poor erica.. LOL

the "poo" talks were too funny
awwww, i wanna come down again!!

5 DOLLAR CHASE
Anne- 2 Sauga ppl- 1